So, it's March.

I know, I haven't really been around. Sue me.

Not a lot to really update on. I'm down to 230 pounds, essentially. I'm one pound off of my self-prescribed "wedding weight"! Not only do I look a whole lot better, but I FEEL so much better. I feel lighter, I feel healthier, I feel... GOOD. That being said, I'm not satisfied with just that. I'm going to continue to lose weight leading up to the wedding. Maybe I can shave off ten more pounds before May 9th! I mean, I took a break from my routine this past week, and I didn't gain a pound. I should be able to do this. My next goal after the wedding is 200 by July 4th. I might be happy with being 200, depending on how I look. It sounds shallow, I know; but if I don't like how I look, I'll keep losing. It is kind of weird thinking about how I will look 30 pounds lighter than I am now. I'm quite excited to see it.

I'm looking for a new job. I'm not sure if the Sysco thing is going to work out all that well with school, crunching the numbers. However, I know that I need the money to go to school, so I can't dismiss it completely either. Agitating, I know.

You know something that is REALLY agitating though? It's the people that continue to ask me: When are you going to put yourself back out there again? When are you going to try for some dates? When are you...

You know what? I'm working on myself right now. I'm working on being the best person that I can be, along with being the most awesome I have been in AGES. I think that if I focus on myself, everything else will come into focus just by default. I figure, how can I fall in love with someone else if I don't really "love" myself yet? That being said... My clothes don't fit anymore, which is awesome and bad at the same time. I've been falling out of my jeans without a belt on. I like this feeling, but I can't afford new clothes. GOSH. LIFE IS HARD! ;) Life has been pretty good lately. I'm a lot happier than I have been in a long freaking time.

Can't wait for May 9th! The wedding is going to be so much fun!

Until my next scatter-brained update, peace out.

-JWR